[Intro: Club Havana Sample]
Kudala ngiku
Kudala ngikulindiwe
Kudala ngikulindiwe
Kudala ngikulindiwe sithandwasam
Sundishiya ndingodwa
Kudala ngikulindiwe sithandwasam
[Chorus: AKA & Club Havana Sample]
My moments of clarity are far and few between dear diary, anxiety goes
I can’t open up to anybody they don’t know how loud the silence is, reality
Dear diary
I’m losing my religion, my batteries
Dear diary
I’m getting real close
That’s why I’m talking to you and nobody else
Dear diary
(Kudala ngikulindiwe)
(Kudala ngiku)
Lights are on but nobody’s home
Sundishiya ndingodwa
Kudala ngiku
[Verse 1: AKA]
Okay, I cannot live here, I cannot sit still
I cannot rebuild, promises unfulfilled here
I don’t want to die ’cause if I go silent who gon’ feed all my children
Nothing feels real no more
How do I fill this hole in my spirit
I cannot hear clichés no more
Living my low life
What did you score me?
I was on top of your pyramid, that’s when the pastor told me
He cannot program consequences, decisions
I be like I’m a good Christian
Get big guap at the robots slide down electric windows
Everyday I walk in your park
How you gon’ take two weeks of the best days of my life, that’s stealing, shee
Test my faith then test my [?]
Personal? That’s business
I cannot hide in my crib forever
Tried to tie my hands behind my back so I can’t feed familia
I’m gon’ do [?] pool is greener
[?] mean mug this side
It’s the right time to clean up
Mamacita since you left me? All of this cash is petty
How can I wear my Rolex and my Giuseppe
How can I flex so empty?
Do you love or regret me?
KudhalaDiary (Anxiety)
[Chorus: AKA & Club Havana Sample]
My moments of clarity are far and few between dear diary, anxiety goes
I can’t open up to anybody they don’t know how loud the silence is, reality shit
Dear diary
I’m losing my religion, my batteries
Dear diary
I’m getting real close
That’s why I’m talking to you and nobody else
Dear diary
(Kudala ngikulindiwe)
(Kudala ngiku)
Lights are on but nobody’s home
Sundishiya ndingodwa
Kudala ngiku
[Verse 2: AKA]
Okay, I cannot feel no pain
Nothing comes close to the way I feel when I go back in my memory bank and I see that frame
That shit burned in my brain forever
That’s where my whole life changed in the space of 30 seconds
Signed the papers
Character assassination
I cannot put my wife to shame I pray she rests in perfection
Shhh okay I get it
Needs someone to blame, you sent flames in my direction
But there’s no time machine to rewind us backwards
She’s gone
We in her presence
I gave her everything that I had
How you gon’ cap and not even make one phone call to my momma, my dad
After we put the sand in the casket that shit is wack, passive aggressive
Never mind Bheki Cele, he wasn’t even on the program
I wrote a speech then took my seat and opened that thing my name was nowhere, imagine
It’s okay I still got that thing wrapped up in plastic
Classic
One day
[Chorus: AKA & Club Havana Sample]
My moments of clarity are far and few between dear diary, anxiety goes
I can’t open up to anybody they don’t know how loud the silence is, reality
Dear diary
I’m losing my religion, my batteries
Dear diary
I’m getting real close
That’s why I’m talking to you and nobody else
Dear diary
(Kudala ngikulindiwe)
(Kudala ngiku)
Lights are on but nobody’s home
Sundishiya ndingodwa
Kudala ngiku
